it's all okay now...I think

I told him the truth. I told him the truth after dinner, after he suggested we go to the beach and watch the sunset, but the MUNI was kind of slow, so we just watched the sky go from dark pink to purple to dark blue. We sat on this ledge, he was on my right. Fortunately, I had a purse on my right arm, so there was this perfect little barrier between us, and he tried to move closer to me, but the purse helped. There was this silence while we were staring out at the ocean. It was the moment to tell him.

"I have something to tell you...I like you, just as a friend."

I waited for the words to sink in. They did, like a ship at sea. Well, he said, thanks for telling me. We did a "hand thing" with the fists hitting each other like friends would do. He seemed okay. Maybe he's a very good actor. The rest of the night went as well as all the times we've spent together as friends. I think he'll be okay. He got off the MUNI before me and went home.

On the MUNI back, by myself, after thanking God for watching over me that night, I got a call from Scooter. I had called him the day before to tell him that I was going to finish the practice roll of film at Embarcadero. If he wanted to come, he could, but he didn't have to. Scooter said he wanted to come.

YES! I mean, uh...cool. I'm glad you can come.

So we spent the most of the day together today trying to get some shots at the Ferry Building. I made PB&J sandwiches and brought bottles of water for him and myself. He said that was nice of me. I told him that food's kind of expensive there, and I didn't want him to have to spend money. They had a really cool farmer's market there. It was fun. We had some laughs. He asked me if anything interesting happened lately. I took this as a hint that he knew about my date with B..

"B. asked me out. Did you know anything about that?"
"No..actually."
"Oh." I was wrong. I didn't say anything.
"Uh..." he said awkwardly, "Do you want to talk about it?"
"I told B. that I just wanted to be friends. Do you think he'll be okay? I know you're his best friend."
"Yeah, I think he'll be okay. Just give him a couple of days...or a week."

After that, we went to West Portal to get a lens cap and drop off our finished roll of film. He paid for it all, which he didn't have to do. He asked if I was doing anything else for the rest of the day. I wanted to bike to the beach. He said that he was thinking about biking along the highway of the beach. I asked him if he knew a safe path of biking to the beach. I also mentioned how my bike's being weird and not shifting.

"I can take a look at your bike if you want."

AAAHHH!!! He came over and checked out my bike but he couldn't fix it. He drew me a map to the beach. I thanked him and offered to pay for film processing and the lens cap. He said not to worry about it because I brought him water and that sandwich. He left and promised not to tell B. what we talked about. Cool. Lovely.

Thank you, God for such an amazing day.