Guilt

I feel horrible for joining MySpace. I mean, it encompasses so many things that I detest and am fighting against. And yet it's just another easier way to be in touch with friends who are far away, know what they are doing, and be connected to them. Plus, they all use it.

It didn't use to be this way. I mean, we used to just email each other or IM each other. I'm not a fan of IM anymore because it allows me to have second-rate conversations. I mean, I can IM this person and do other stuff at the same time (like watch a trailer on Apple, type up a paper, shop on Amazon). That's not communicating, and that's not fair to the other person. Maybe I'm just old-fashioned, but I like hearing people's voices and speaking to them face to face.

I'm torn. Being the old (as in fashioned, still) person that I am, I don't want to conform. And yet, I don't want to be left out while everyone I love continues without me, joining this site or doing whatever else has been concluded to be "in" and "easier". Easier in a sense that, we can be lazier and complete things with the least amount of effort. Can there be a healthy balance of both? Can I continue the old ways, fight for them, try to turn everyone back to what used to be done, what should still be done? Written letters, fountain pens, sealed wax, and conversations over tea and not over the internet?

Am I just as bad for having a blog? I don't think so, since it's original intent was to get my thoughts out there to friends, but mostly anyone with internet access who loves to read about weird, random experiences, moments with strangers, and just my life as a 19 year old girl who is trying (very hard) to live this life to the fullest. I want this to be meaningful, this blog I mean. I don't want to waste people's time. This blog has been meaningful to me, and I hope I haven't wasted your time this year.

And please, help me bring back the old ways.

For Narnia!