resolution reflection

Yay! Christmas (as in the season of materialism, consumerism, shopping malls, crowds) is over. Let's not forget the true meaning of Christmas. Linus, of the Peanuts, will help you:

"And there were in the same country shepherds abiding in the fields, keeping watch over their flocks by night. And lo, the angel of the Lord came upon them, and the glory of the Lord shone round about them, and they were so afraid. And the angel said unto them, 'Fear not, for behold, I bring unto you good tidings of great joy, which shall be to all people. For unto you this day is born in the city of Bethlehem, a Savior, which is Christ the Lord. And this shall be a sign unto you; you shall find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger.' And suddenly there was with the angel, a multitude of the heavenly host, praising God, and saying, 'Glory to God in the highest, and on Earth peace, good will toward men' ". That's what Christmas is all about, Charlie Brown." Amen.

And don't you forget it.

Christmas was alright this year. It's sad, but I really don't feel anything for Christmas. I think I wrote about this before...Christmas is just a break from school, and that's all it means to me, and I wish I didn't feel this way, but I do.

My cousin's husband was my secret santa. We had Thanksgiving at their house this year, and he's in the SWAT. He's tall, and, now, he kinda scares me. He gave me an iTunes gift card, which was on the wish list (all of the family put a couple of things they wanted on the wish list, and it was emailed to everyone). I opened it and was all happy and everything. He was all, "I'm glad you like it, and I hope you use it." Look at that second clause. He said some other stuff to me--he was pretty much grilling me!!! Using some police interrogation scare tactic to see if I was going to re-gift it! Why would I do that? I asked for it. That's the impression I got from him, and I'm not overreacting. I was so put off that it ruined the rest of the night for me. I can't believe this Christmas gift ruined Christmas for me. My cousin, the one he married, doesn't like me at all, and that doesn't help things either. She used to grill me about my weight when I was heavier, and now, she's really snotty to me. She's always been snotty to me, actually. And I was her secret santa. Unbelievable. I wanted to trade with my brother, but I didn't want him to question me about it.

I got her a gift card (which was on her list). She was all being sarcastic when I handed it to her, "I wonder what this is!" She didn't even open it, and she said, "Thanks." Why does me family hate me? This just adds to why I don't really care this holiday season.

Moving onwardly, I do this a lot in my other journal--the one that I write in. I go over the resolutions I made last year and reflect on whether or not I lived up to them this year. So here are last years resolutions with my reflections.

1. Get fit and healthy. Mission accomplished. I am probably at my most healthiest right now, excluding the time when I was a baby and was being fed that mushy vegetable stuff. I'm really happy with my appearance now, more than ever, and I know my immediate family is glad that I got healthier. My Dad is now inspired to walk every day around the neighborhood and to eat better. I've been pushing my parents to eat better as well because I just want them to be around for a long time. Keeping this lifestyle up is the hard part.
2. Be more environmentally conscious. Accomplished. This may sound disgusting, but I always scrutinize the trash in the kitchen to make sure that nothing in there is recyclable. And if there is something recyclable, well, you know where this is going...
3. Try to be more open to people. Uh...still working on that. But I think I'm getting better each year...
4. Be serious. About filmmaking, I mean. Again, not so much. I haven't even finished the Euro film, and I pretty much write more than I film because I don't have a camera of my own. This is something that needs working on.

Two out of four--that's okay, by my standards. Better than none out of four.

New resolutions:
1. Save money. For Paris. It's so important that I have enough money for my year abroad. This means, getting a job (slacker, I know), putting a percentage of my earnings in my savings account, and cutting back on buying things that I don't need. I already have a head start since I put all my money from my summer job into that account.
2. Be a better friend. I suck at being a friend. I forget to send birthday cards, I forget birthdays. I'm really, truly horrible.
3. Stop being such a lazy, slacker bum. Because I am.

That's all I can think of right now.