I did it...only...

Hey friends! Guess what!!! L. (my roommate and good friend) and I were one our way to the Billiard's Club party at the student center around 5:00 p.m., and that's when I saw the boy with glasses. It was a total surprise. He was walking towards us. It was dark, but the lampposts were shining, and there was this tree in front of us, and the raindrops on the leaves were catching all the light making the trees look like they were sparkling with the wind blowing through them and everything. It was beautiful. And I did it. I smiled at him, my friends. I was looking through my glasses and into his, smiling just for him, only. . .

His gaze was on the ground beneath him. He didn't see me at all. Either that or he wanted to ignore me, like I did last night when his gaze was on me. I totally deserved that. Seconds afterward, I laughed at the irony of it.

Sometimes I think God does these things to me just for fun. Like I'm His entertainment, His own little tv show. "The Prufrock Show" or "The Elaine Show." Haha. I think He likes seeing me in these situations. He wants to see how I'd react and everything. And that all the stuff I go through is amusing. I don't blame Him. My life's pretty weird (in a good way) and cinematic. I couldn't have asked for a better life. Thank you God. Thanks for tuning in, for not changing the channel. Haha. God keeps the ratings way up.

Another beautiful thing happened today. I saw a hummingbird this morning hovering over some hydrangeas, my favorite flower. I paused to watch it, and, sensing me, it stopped in mid-air, the flapping of its wings a blur. We looked at each other for a second. It then flew away, and I continued walking. Both of us returning to our obligations. For a brief second, life paused for the both of us; time held back, waiting for us so that it can continue. That doesn’t happen very often, does it? At least, not to those who could perceive as I do, a gift I am burdened with, but would never return to the giver.

Time waited for us. Impossible? Time waits for those who appreciate. For those who look outside the clock and measure it in beautiful moments. To stop for a flower; pause for a cloud; look into a stranger’s eyes. Time can stop for these things. She is forgivable, and wise, and can grant these wishes for those who see its value.

It's just like when you see that person you long for, everything slows down just for you. Like in that scene in "Big Fish." It slows down just enough for you to enjoy it, yet it keeps you longing for a moment more. For those slow seconds, all your focus is just on that beautiful boy, and nothing else matters. I hear nothing, feel nothing. The only sense I am aware of is my sight. All I see is the boy with glasses. And then he's gone.

Thank you God for crossing my path with his this past week. I've never seen him so much in such a short span of days. It'll make up for the six weeks I'll never see him. Thanks again. And thanks, friends, for your support, love, and advice. This Prufrock has much to be thankful for, especially for friends who care for her well-being. I'm so blessed. Have an amazing, beautiful day.