a quick post while I'm away

We leave tomorrow for LA. Woo-hoo! Am very excited to see old friends and have fun with just recently made friends. It's so weird to think that I only met these people (Cinema Collective) less than 5 months ago, and now some of them are sleeping at my house for Cinegear. They're good people.

Shooting has been going well, except I think that P. is sort of "mad" at me. I've been very aloof and distant with him, just a little. Mostly when we're not working. When we're working, then I'm very professional. But, sometimes he wants to hang out outside of shooting, and I really don't like hanging out with him too much because he's such a chatterbox, and not in a good way at that. I always keep thinking, "Can we please have some silence, just for a little while?" I also have this feeling that he has feelings for me. I like him, as a friend, but I'm not attracted to him in the way that I'm attracted to Slate. I'm also starting to like Scooter! God, why must you surround me with wonderful boys?

Scooter and I joke around a lot on the set, and he's nice and funny, and warm, and I don't feel awkward with him in the way I feel with P.. I feel so comfortable and myself with Scooter. With Slate, it's still this Amelie-ish sort of crush in that I'm shy around him and courteous, but I can't really talk to him or look him in the eye. We don't talk much to each other unless it's work talk.

Yesterday, we were filming at night outdoors, and I was standing in front of him holding the slate. He had the camera on me and said, "It's time for your cameo, Elaine." I smiled and laughed a little. Then he said to his little brother who was holding a reflective sheet to direct light on the actor, "Hey, D., give Elaine a little fill light." Dylan did. The light lit up my face. It was nice that he did that. It was such a small thing, but you know me too well that things like that really do it to me.

I'll post next week when I'm back from home. I don't feel like taking my laptop with me. I can't believe I'm turning twenty on Friday! AAHH! I'm glad that I'll be surrounded by friends and family instead of stuck here in cold SF. Later friends!