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Congrats to the director of "Crash". My friend made me see it, and I'm glad I did. At first because of all the hype I didn't want to see it. But it's well done. Wish it had more Asians though.
I could never be an actor. Or actress, rather. I blink too much. I blink all the time, probably because of my contacts. Without contacts though, I think I'm okay. I read in my text for cinema studies that too much blinking causes the audience to distrust the character. That they're probably hiding something. I've been watching films and television more closely now, and I noticed how a lot of actors deliver they're lines without blinking, or they blink during a pause. It's very interesting.

"Nothing is forgotten, even if you can't remember it." -- Zeniba (?)

I watched "Spirited Away" for the second time. I last saw it right when it came out. It was beautiful, and it made me cry. The moment that I cried was when Chihiro was flying on Haku's back, and she remembers where she knows him from. He turns back into a boy, and she cries, and they're falling from the sky. She remembers that he saved her from drowning, and that his real name is Kahaku, or something like that and that he was the river spirit. But they filled it in to build apartments. So sad!

True love broke the spell that bound Haku--amazing. We were talking about true love and what our hearts should be composed of in philosophy class. An amazing class. Every student should have to take a philosophy class in his lifetime. Anyway, that's why I have that quote up there. I quickly jotted it down because it was so beautifully said, and it's a great quote.

Incidentally, this is probably the worst week of my semestre, and I'm blogging. Four exams and two papers. Unbelievable. It's like all the professors got together over coffee and said to each other, "Let's make this hell week for Elaine." And then they'd fetch their TAs to write the hardest exams and essay prompts possible. I swear, that's what happened. Whatever. I can get through this. My major is on the line though. I need to get a B or higher in these two cinema classes to remain a cinema major. Ugh.

Sometimes I wish I could have just gone straight to working in film out of high school. Or go to a technical school like those ones they advertise on daytime tv. I'd probably be living on my own and missing out on all that great "college" stuff that they speak about. If you're really outgoing and the kind of person who makes friends easily, then you'll definitely experience all that college "fun" people talk about. But if you're a reclusive, shy person--not so much. You'll just experience the kind of stuff that becomes inspirational for your art and whatever medium you use to show your art.

I think that weighs more to me than being hungover and making a bunch of acquaintances who just want to use your printer.

things that have been really yummy lately:
1. graham crackers and nutella
2. pretzels and nutella
3. cheddar cheese and pretzels

things that I want instantly gratified:
1. spring break to be here
2. that A. the cinema T.A. would smile at me at class
3. to have shoulder length hair (why does hair grow so slow when you want it to grow it out?)
4. for this stupid week to be over