The production meeting went well. I had the most insane case of deja vu during it though. I almost flipped out. We were sitting in a room and all the desks were in a circle. The production manager was talking about where we were shooting on which days. There was a guy next to me that had his motorcycle helmet on his desk. The helmet set it off. I've done this before. I've sat in this room before, I have been here before and done all this already. Deja vu is so weird. I wish I could be the accent on the "e", but I'm kind of lazy right now, and I have a lot of homework to do. Translated, deja vu means "already seen" in French.
How is it that I can remember something that has never happened while it's happening? I sound crazy...Okay, what I mean is this: I've never even been to that room before. All the people that were there, I've never met save for the director and one of the other PAs. So how come when I was in that room, I remember being there before, seeing all those people, sitting in that exact desk and seeing that helmet right where it was? I even remember having the vision of that room. I don't exactly remember when, but it was earlier this year. I was in my bedroom, sitting on my bed, and I saw myself in that room which I've never been in before sitting in that desk and being in a production meeting. I think I was spacing out, daydreaming, but not dreaming about anything real at all, just letting my mind wander.
I want to believe that I have some sort of untapped psychic energy. I get deja vu a lot. It doesn't scare me, I just get a little flipped out by it. Can I see into the future? Do I have any real choices at all? Is everything planned out for me already by God? Am I making the choices He wants? Whenever I get deja vu I think, this is what God wants. He is telling me that all this is okay. That all this is part of the plan, that all this adds towards my future.
I met a girl at the meeting. She's really nice. She offered to drive me to the shoot since we're both working on the same days. The Saturday shoot is from 4 to midnight. She says she doesn't want to be driving alone at night. I said that I would pay for her gas. Thank you God for sending me a new friend. A friend who will drive me to the shoot. Thank you for giving me the confidence I need. Thank you for the signs.
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any dream is a good dream, i think. especially if you can remember it or connect it with something--like you connecting it to something you watched or something someone said.
i think you just have to truly believe in the power of deja vu and keep your mind open. you have to imagine a lot and daydream a lot, and just take time to let your mind wander aimlessly. you can't force it. just take a few mintues out of your day to meditate. then slowly, you'll find yourself "spacing out" when you're not really doing anything important. things will just come to you and flood your thoughts.
i think that through this, you will come to a point where you find why all this imagining is so important. for me, i want to divine how to be with God in heaven instead of coming back here all the time.
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