what to give up

In addition to the whole "don't eat meat on Fridays" and "fast on Ash Wednesday and Good Friday", I'm giving up a couple of things that I think would be really good for me:

1. limit internet time to an hour a day: Sounds impossible, but I think I can handle it. I spend too much time on the internet. I'll write down the times I go on and make sure they don't go over an hour each day.

2. no unnecessary purchases: This means no clothes, magazines, books, eating out, etc. Lately I've been buying clothes, which I really shouldn't because I'm in the process of losing weight.

3. finally finished editing the Euro film: Because it's still not finished. Pathetic.

Mom is really worried that I'm starving myself--not true. I told her that I lost my holiday weight gain, which I'm really happy about. I want to get strong and energized, is that so wrong? Incidentally, I have pics of Angelina Jolie from Tomb Raider on my closet to inspire me. I want to be fit, like Lara Croft fit or close to it, if it's possible. I think that she thinks I'll become some other person if I looked different. That's not going to happen. I'm still going to be the same Elaine that she and Dad raised. I am afraid though that I've become a bit obsessed with my health. Diseases and cancer scare me.

Hilarious. Yesterday at Mass, this family sat in front of us. They had a son, maybe my age or a little older. Another family sits in the pew in front of them. Their son turns around and high-fives the other guy sitting in back of them. Friends. I thought that was so hilarious. A high-five right during Mass, right before the first reading and all.

I haven't written anything beautiful the last couple of months, which really makes me sad. I used to write really good posts about things that mattered. Now I've become obsessed with my body and shopping and material things. I've become that selfish person that I thought I would never become. For that, I am sorry. I don't want to lose readers because of my selfishness. I mean, I was hoping that you'd come here often for the content and style of my writing, as engaging as it is (sarcasm), and it really sucks right now, I think. Let's add another thing to the Lenten list:

4. Stop posting about my losing weight obsession and anything material. Write something beautiful at least once a week.