yikes!

My fall semestre is already off to a bad start. I am now living in a two-bedroom apartment with three other people, one of which I know--she was my roommate last year.

Anyway, one girl is pretty cool, M. The other is not so...She's pretty out there and will get in your face. Just last night, L., M., and I were talking in the living room, and K. (crazy girl) came out in her underwear to talk to us. I mean, we just met her a day ago, and she comes out in her underwear to speak to us. When she left--to go dress--we all made these faces with each other. I think K. gets off on freaking people out, you know what I mean? I think she does it because it makes her feel powerful and in control.

There's other drama, as well. Each of us are not in our assigned rooms. K. doesn't want to switch, though. She'd rather we request for room changes, which is a bummer because it'll take two weeks to process the request, and it might not be approved anyway. L. wants to switch rooms now to avoid anymore complications. Me? I just want everyone to be happy. I want all of us to live in peace and harmony, to be able to split the chores to be done around the house and to establish a way to live together.

Will that happen?

Kuya called me today (Aug. 23), and he made me cry, because he was so right. He told me that I have to be assertive so that people don't walk all over me. He's right, he's right. I've let so many people walk all over me. I rationalized it by thinking that I was a martyr for God, that by letting stuff like this happen, God would reward me tenfold. Am I wrong to believe in this?

I wrote that yesterday. I just got my ethernet cable today, so I wasn't able to update the blog. Anyway, the living situation is getting better I think. I just feel that L. and I are the only ones who really care about how the apartment looks. I mean, both of us want clean apartments. Already, K. has left hair in the sink (she cuts her hair every so often) and hasn't cleaned it up.

Whatever. I feel that the desire to be home is stronger this year. Last year, I was okay being here. But this year...home just sounds better.

I had one class today, French 102. I was so happy because I saw my old friends from last semestre's French class, T. and D.. They are awesome people. There's this one guy in French class that's really cute. He looks like John Cusack. The young John Cusack from "Stand By Me" and "Sixteen Candles". But he walked in with this girl and sat with her, so I immediately just think, "It won't happen, he has a girlfriend." I think I think that for every nice-looking guy I see.
Here's a pic of my teddy bear: